If you have been following me on my social media, you will know that many things have changed in my life since I last posted. I will mainly start with the more recent update & will fill in on other updates in future posts. I recently resigned from my job of 8 years as a Revenue Cycle Specialist due to various personal reasons. One of those reasons is improving my health & pursuing other opportunities. I debated resigning from my job for quite a few years but I never found the opportunity in life to do so. I also hated the thought of resigning as I felt obligated to continue working. I had formed such great personal bonds & obtained so much knowledge, and it made it difficult to leave.
I had been working for this company since doing a 6-week externship back in May 2013. I was officially hired in July 2013. I always wanted to work from home full-time, but the company did not have any WFH opportunities available at the time for the position I was hired for. They did have opportunities for other positions, but unfortunately I was not qualified for those positions. I was close to my goal of working full-time when the COVID pandemic hit. In March 2020, the company started implementing work-from-home options for many of its positions and I was one of the first to start. I worked full-time at home for a while before the company implemented a “hybrid” schedule. I was working four days at home and going into the office every Friday. To my knowledge, I was one of the few allowed to have this schedule as most of my coworkers had to come into the office a couple of days a week.
Everything was going great over the next couple of months. I got to a point where I met my quota for my full 8-hour work day done in 4-hours. I felt more confident in requesting time off and I was spending more of my time with my husband & son. I was getting into exercising & healthier habits to fill my time. I was getting back into my old hobbies with Polymer clay & video games. This was wonderful and I didn’t want it to end, or so I thought.
In December 2020, I don’t know what came over me but I started to re-evaluate my life as an individual. Working a corporate job made me feel like I could not fully express myself. I was so afraid of being fired for just being who I am. I became depressed and I began to revert to bad habits. I was staying up until 2 am in the morning due to crying spells. I lost my appetite & would have to force myself to eat dinner. I mainly relied on Ensure to get the nutrition I needed to get through the day. I stopped exercising because I could not gather any energy. I started calling out of work as I figured it was stress-related. The next few months were…okay. I got by. Instead of calling out, I got approved for the time off. I was still working my full-time job and continue to push through while trying to eliminate bad habits.
On Wednesday – May 26, 2021, I had a migraine around 11am and decided it would be best for me to clock out at noon for the rest of the day. I eventually got the migraine to subside that day after a nap & began to once again re-evaluate my choices in life. Eventually I realized that I was requesting time off almost every month and my mental health was not getting better. My mental health was getting worse. After crying my eyes out for hours & dreaded going back to work, I decided to turn in my immediate resignation via e-mail on Friday – May 28. This was my second job I had ever gotten in my life & therefore the first time I had ever turned in a resignation. I cried for days afterwards. I turned in my badge & work equipment on Tuesday – June 1.
Many of my former coworkers were worried about me when they heard I resigned. They thought it was completely out of character for me, and they were right. I never planned on resigning on the spot. I always planned that if I did left my job, I would put in a two-weeks notice. Do I regret turning in my resignation the way that I did? No. I do not. One of the best decisions I have ever made, but I am scared of what this means for me for the future.
I do not have a plan at this time for me, which makes this whole idea terrifying…so let us just see!